So the last time I posted was on Saturday and my 1-day vacation from blogging turned into the entire weekend of a sort of soul searching mission. I can’t really say that I was able to fully figure out anything (I mean, who can find answers to such a deep topic in only 2 short days)? I did however, spend a lot of time crying, talking to God and reading. I think the part that really helped me the most was the crying and talking to God, I expressed a lot and got a lot out. I went through so many emotions from anger; to sadness to confusion to a bit of a calming effect though I am still rattled a little inside, I can say it’s not as bad as it was.
I really wanted to thank those of you who left comments and encouraging words for me, it really helped and was just nice to see! I’ve decided to start my day with the mindset that today is the first day of the rest of my life and just take it one day at a time, see what happens and not be so hard on myself. I know God loves me, I mean he died for my sins so I could be saved and given everlasting life, how much more could someone love me! I also know that though I can’t always hear him and at times I get frustrated with not getting an answer from him right away, I have come to realize that he’s always on time with his plan for my life. I plan to post later today with something a bit a more cheerful but I just wanted to give an update right now. Also I’m in the process of rearranging my blog and making some changes so please bear with me as I take this editing thing one step at a time!